Pleasure and Pain

So today was a very good day, i ate well and worked out hard. Jesus knows that I wasn't prepared for the workout I gave myself today, my thighs are screaming for mercy. I am proud of myself though, hurt back thighs and all. I think if I keep on this track that I will be at my goal quicker than I imagine. So far I have lost 5lbs since June 1 and I think that is great even though you always want more, but i have to think was I trying as hard as i could have? the answer is not at all, I was very bad but still good enough not to gain. I am so excited and motivated to do this I am motivated by love.... the love of the child I want to have and being over weight its so much harder to concive and bring a healthy child into this world. oh yeah and find a decent man to have a child with (marry first then child). Anyway I am beat. Thanks again to the people who have showed me more support than I can ever ask for in friends (Paul and Coleen) it means more than anything that you are on this journey with me I feel so good that I know that at the end of the day that your in just as much pain as I am muwwaahhh!!!! lol love you guys. Oh yeah and mommy who cooks me really healthy food cause she loves me (and think I can't cook tee hee its like in home catering, looovvee mommy)